Is there hope? I have a WW

[LANE777]

Hello Team...lol...a lot of great people here. Thanks for your input on the anti depressants. I'm going to hold off a bit or try a smaller dosage. Terrapin, they put me on Venalaxafine. I was so nauseous, I was dry heaving at work..lol.Glad it wore off finally.
I really think social media is the cause of alot of AFs nowadays. I've heard so many stories of people reconnecting with old flames. Hell, I've had old girlfriends friend me. Its actually awkward, but for some it opens the door. I do need to stop checking FB ...in fact, I really should disable or delete it. So I've read through alot of threads. I know I'm not the only brokenhearted person. I'm not glad about it either. I feel bad for every single one of us. And I am grateful for every single one of you. I'd be way more lost if I hadn't stumbled on this place. I'd still be pursuing and begging and probably in jail if I hadn't found this place.
Tonight was a great night for GAL. I took my two youngest to the Fair. Spent way too much money. My kids rode tons of rides . And I watched all the weird people for 5 hours. Where do these people come from?. I tried not to think about the previous 15 years I'd been going with W. Okay I thought about it too much, but I was okay. I dropped kids off at Ws place and came on home. My 2 oldest wont stay with her. She is very hurt by them not wanting to stay there. I wont get in the middle of it if she asks.
I need to prepare myself mentally for next week. Her trip...ugh. I'm so disappointed in her-- smh. I will just continue on and stay strong. I know I will need some uplifting advise and motivation, so be ready..lol. No, I will be okay. At times it will pop into my head ,how blown away I am that I am going through this. How my W turned so wayward...so out of character. I know some of you feel the exact same. Its really like a twilight zone /nightmare. If they only knew how much pain they inflicted...they still would not care.