W snapped at me last night when I was showing her how to use our digital camera. I may have been less than clear on the correct buttons to use, but when she yelled at me, I said I had a "right" not to be yelled at.
She said, "A right? A right? What about my rights all these years. But no. Unless I'm perfect, you won't accept it."
I politely said "expectation" of not being yelled at may have been a better word than "right," but would you like me to show you now how to use the camera and I'll try to explain it better. She refused and another day in paradise ended. But she did mumble that my actions were not matching my words on change and that I was not serious. I don't really recall saying much of anything about how I was changing, so she must be inferring the chnages she does see as my "spoken word" as compared to those times where I backslide. I guess such ambivlance is good and the message I get is to show I'm serious by continuing to act like a loving person--regardless of her own actions.
W has events scheduled for tonight, tomorrow and Thursday, while I'll see the Yankees tomorrow with my Dad (Christine?? Want to come?). This should give us "back off" time. The next big step will be the separation agreement she and her lawyer propose to me. W will be wrestling with that one alone and that ought to be fun!!!
