L....you will never be able to make sense of it....very hard to do but try your best. It took me 3 months before I felt like I could breathe again. Your journey is just beginning and it will take many turns. If you DB properly your wife will feel your strength without you communicating with her. My Xw commented to a family friend a few weeks ago about how grateful and lucky she was to be going through this with a man like me. Deep down inside they know what they have done.
