D will end forever any chance of R between us, it will also end any friendship between us...
Why do you believe this? There is lots of cases of R after D. Even after many many years of D! It doesn't have to be the end.
Now admittedly, I am not a big fan of the whole "lets be friends" after D thing. But to say that forever there will never be a chance of R after D is just simply not true. Now if you want to say "D means I will never be open to R with her ever again" then that might be true. And is well within your power to make that decision.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018