I’m starting to realize I’ve been tricking myself with all the work I’ve implemented on myself (IC, men’s support group, healthy diet, fitness, self improvement, faith, etc) with the underlying hope/desire that it would bring WAS back.
I say I’m doing this all for me on the surface....but when I really get honest with myself, I know it’s a farce.
Can anyone give advice on what they did to truly dig deep and get to another level to get to your best self?
I’ve shaved 70lbs and want to get another 10-15 to get the “Fight Club” physique back I once had....but know it’s not physical appearance that matters most...it’s within. And within is where I believe I’ve made tremendous strides...but continue to trip up and then have to reset and climb back up the mountain.
10th anniversary day came and went with NC with W. Celebrated with taking S6 out to a fun place to eat along with my parents. Trying to reframe everything in terms of what I have gratitude for since BD.
Me - 38 W-37 S6 M 10 years T 13yrs BD 3/18 W moves out 4/18 W files 7/18
