I think it is amazing that you are able to experience such joy with your D at her first day of school. That has to be such an amazing feeling. Focus on that, on the gratitude for having such love in your life. It is so easy to caught up in the eddies of negative emotions and let them wash over us and drown us. Don't forget to gaze up at the light that is already present in your life.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019