Gordie 21 going with my gut

[Gordie]

DNJ and Gerda thank you for the encouragement and yes Gerda I get what you are saying

One thing you wrote really struck me

Am I afraid of being humiliated

I never asked myself that question and there is a part of me that answers no she has already done the worst

But a part of me answers yes at the prospect of a really bad sequel

Living in the present and time diminish that fear but good to acknowledge it

I have gained more peace with uncertainty

Reminds me of Moses wandering around in the desert and never reaching the promised land