AS gave you some outstanding advice. I couldn't agree more.
One thing I would suggest, consider consulting with an attorney about support. Knowledge is power. It will give you some relief knowing what you will be obligated to pay in your current sitch. It helped me once I had this info.
Anyway, re-read the advice from AS and the other members who have been supporting you.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa