[quote] Last week while we were away, I stupidly fell for her affection and I feel conned, stupid, used and betrayed all over again. She keeps throwing me crumbs and like a stupid lap dog I am waiting for scraps of hope
Shows you have to work on detaching. When you are detached and she gives you crumbs of affection, then you will accept them WITHOUT EXPECTATIONS. The problem wasn't that you accepted her affection, or even returned it, it was that you thought it meant R or moving toward R.
NO EXPECTATIONS.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018