Need Guidance moving from new comer to MLC,

[marina7]

OneArt,

Well one thing mediator said was
There is still lots of hurts from past and I see the love.

I was quite, W yeld hell No I will never ever be back with you,
I hate you I wish I can move across country.

Again I was quite I let W vent and mediator then told me she felt
W needed to get that ok.

Again I was quiet.

In my opinion mediator is more like trying to be a therapist.
I again will do what I have to do to show court that I am here for our kids

Yes there is lot of hurt, I know when W ask me for
us to go to marriage counseling I said No. I wasn't ready I was in denial with myself

I must say the last 4yrs I had a awakening, I had a seizure because I didn't know I
had MS and fell in my face breaking my face literally going into a coma brain swelled
I thank God everyday for my 2nd chance in life. Now I must admit that was my awakening
Falling in my face and almost losing my life.

I again thank God for my blessings. And when I was ready for the change
that's when W started pulling away detaching herself around 2016 from us 4.


So now I am here taking it a day at a time. W keeps looking at the past. Mediator
is all about family. And W showing her tears made mediator cry mediator I guess
felt bad for W.

And far for me I was quite and didn't say much and I didn't tear at all when W spilled her guts
I just listen to it all and yes W is very much hurting for what I did. But also I was blamed for everything
W is miserable because of me, W didn't take no blame

Again I hope mediator sees what's best for kids, and I have been working on myself the last year. I also
Found out W just started therapy herself so let's see if therapy will help her through this crisis.