Journaling...


Ive been consistent with going to the gym. Im working 3-5 days a week right now, and my body is slowly starting to feel better. Emotionally i have a way to go to catch up, but i think that is expected.

W sent me a text yesterday a.m. to let me know that she had dropped S off at school. She also told me that she made it to work (she drives long distance to work), and then goes on to say that she knows i dont care but shes telling me anyway(re:making it to work). I know not to read into any of this but a part of me wondered is it more of her guilt speaking out or temp checking? My guess is temp checking.

For the most part ive been avoiding conversation with her after our arguments last week. Those were so stressful to me, that im definitely doing my best to just walk away from them. Im still able to remain polite during our interactions and thats the way i want to keep it even though W feeds off the drama and wants our interactions to have tension.

It seems that she is comfortable trying to friend zone me (which seems par for the course here), as she routinely tries to tell me whats going on at her job or what new career idea she may have (shes an entrepeneur). I keep it short with one word answers but stay polite. There is rarely any talks about our R in the past, but when there is i validate and i think that seems to pi** her off. Im going to go back through the validation section and work on something that validates her feelings and not makes her feel like im saying they arent accurate etc, because they are her feelings.


Last edited by equalzr; 09/05/18 02:41 PM.

Together:20 years
M:3 years
Me:40
WW:40
S15
A suspected:5/17
AC:5/18
BD:8/18
WW in full blown R w/ OM
Still under same roof