W- I hope youre ok after our talk. I just want everyone to be peaceful and happy. I dont have all the answers. (I was fine and didnt think much of it we were supposed to talk again tonight)
Me- I dont expect you to know or have all the answers but your answers are so out there to me.
W- Alien emoji
Me- You wont date one person but you have this huge sigh when I say lets get divorced then. It cant be both. I understand your situation with starting a business.
W- We should get divorced. I always feel like theres a sense of control and maybe its because we are still married.
Me- (Text overlap at same time) Part of me thinks lets divorce and if we come together in the future so be it. But the other par wants to get to date or get to know each other again.
W- Yea
Me- Ok
W- The marriage thing doesnt really matter to me. You know Ive always thought of it as a piece of paper. Legal whatever (This was only after separation - before that she was incredibly into the marriage and loyal... until she wasnt)
Me- I just feel like I will want space to get over you and not talk to you.
W- Ok..
Phone Call I called her because the texting is too much for me - goes somewhat well about caring for each other and getting along being on the same page not toxic if we are on the same page etc... 10 min but she tells me shes crying which doesnt show at all in the convo.
Me- I hope youre ok.
W- Im ok I just process slower and in a different way than you. Let me focus on D4 and her first day of school. Dont wanna be distracted or not present.
Me- Glad youre ok lets focus on the positives and the present ttyl.
W- Shes sad and wanted you to be there after school.
Me- Always will. Finishing up a meeting.
W- Facetime ASAP
Facetimed an hour later when free.
W- 2 Hours later do you want to say goodnight or facetime.
Me- Facetime in a few.
W- Sends pic of me walking D4 into school awesome picture...
Me- Thanks.
Do I go back to DB and detach focus on myself... slow down / take a break with other women... W said yesterday she was dating because I was dating a few months ago... now adamant that she isnt seeing anyone.... stop support after this month and just dont say anything about it. See what happens.
I lose sleep thinking about this sh*t. Its affecting me a lot and it tears at me. I guess either way I have to get back to detaching... over and out. Thanks for reading my ridiculous BS.
H: 33 W:32 M: 5 T: 8 D: 4 BD: 6/2017 MO: 6/2017 House sold: 6/28/18 W wants to build friendship / relationship- 9/18 Paying $ support since 7/18. Physical Reconnect- 10/18 W Starts- IC / MC - 10/18
