Getting Back to my Old Self

[DonH]

You are totally correct KML but I need to give myself some 2X4s here:

Let's start with I don't understand women and I can't mind read for crap. I really can't mind read text. I have to stop trying. I don't know if it's still PTSD from my bomb drop 13 years ago? Or one of the two GFs did somewhat of a bomb drop as well - it came out of nowhere. That's not at all what's going on here. Looking back the two times we talked on the phone, things were totally normal, it was the texts but even those I was wrong about minor, every day things.

So my plan was just let her come to me. I was not going to text or call tonight. What happens, of course early in the evening while I'm still out taking my hot tub pump in for repair I get a text saying she's free in a little while if I want to talk. I'm not going to lie, a little part of me was like, um talk about what, oh no here it comes. Well of course I could not have been more wrong - about everything. She explained the weekend - well mostly. Even me thinking she didn't have fun at the cook out her and the girls went to... nope she totally did (again mind reading text). Then she says how she misses seeing me since it's been two weeks and would this coming weekend work? Yes, her reaching out to me - not me having to ask like is often the case. We already have plans for me to stay over the following weekend due to back to back gigs close to her.

So, yes, all good, it was never not. Why am I looking for the next shoe to drop? And that is typically NOT me. I'm rather confident and rather good at selecting and passing by - I mean how many women did I discard and move on from in the past several years? Perhaps that's part of it - try as I might, I just could not bring myself to be excited about them - something that's not a problem with wild girl - I am excited to hear from her and to spend time with her.

So this is the third time now that I've been wrong. I totally need to get myself together. - yes, KML, I am in and need to relax and enjoy. I really am good until the end of January at the very least. It's all good. Get your shlt together Don!!!!!!!!!!