He just came to the house, I was pleasant. He did the work on the drilled holes I had messed up and offered to redrill them for me and I said that’s ok but thank you. I was pleasant. I wasn’t cold like I’m feeling. I said I was going to the gym and he said ok and then told me how he dropped something on his foot at work and showed me his hurt toe.

I think I said oh that’s not good! And then I left For the gym. I am feeling totally helpless at this point. I feel like he is really just living the life outside our home and I’m making this effort to leave the house when he comes in hopes he will miss me over time. I know I have to be patient but I’m so scared he enjoys his life too much outside our marriage to even think about missing me.

I’m venting. I’m angry. I’m angry he is probably seeing someone else and I can’t get him to change his perception of me. This was a man who wanted nothing more than to be with me and just settle down and have a family and now it’s like he doesn’t even remember wanting any of that. I feel so far from him.

I know I did the right thing by being pleasant and leaving the house. I will continue doing this, continue GAL, continue attempting to detach, but certain things really trigger strong feelings.