DB / Detach, WAW... piecing

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She says we dont know each other. Wants to start as friends. It has been almost 1.5 years and we have both changed a lot. I for one have changed a heck of a lot. Maybe she is playing me. Maybe she just wants the support. But I dont think she even considers not having the support an option.

Is cutting the support going to have any positive outcome? I dont see it. I think we just divorce. Maybe we R during the time leading up to that. But letting her call the shots and the back and forth is insane. Theres so much to work on and if she wont commit to working with me and valuing me and our family then do I want to be with her anyway?

Dam* shes gorgeous and underneath all the Fd up [censored] she is a good person. Shes sensitive, introverted and has anxiety issues so by no means is she anywhere near perfect. But I believe she really just wants to get along. She doesnt seem to care if were together though... maybe because she thinks that will always be an option. I guess I pull that option at least for now. The quality of life is so much better if were together... I truly miss her in my life.

Maybe she only wants the safety net. I truly think she doesnt know. But backing off definitely brings her closer. I just dont know if I have the patience.