Not much has happened between me and my W. The only contact was when she called me yesterday to see about when I would be home to pick up 6s. When I did pick him up, he came out and got in the car. So she did not come out to see her other 3 kids but they also didn't go in and see her. Part of me still thinks I should be able to call or sit down and have a conversation about us. But then I remember a couple months ago, it just pushed her to say she wanted a D and then to go get the D packet from the courthouse and fill them out. So far since I have backed way off, she has slowed down...maybe. She still has not mentioned anything about her little get away next week. I'm sorry but I get the biggest knot in my gut over this still. I know if I was detaching it wouldn't bother me so bad and I wish it didn't but it does. We were never able to go do things alone because we had kids and we were always broke. Now shes going off on a 5 day trip with her "just a friend" staying in hotels etc...hate thinking about it. It really hurts.
Like a lot of people, I come here to vent and get advice and what or what not to expect.
Is it good that we don't have much contact at all? When we do, we are nice to each other and its always about kids and schedule etc.
As far as a WW goes, do they even think about the good times they had and the good times they are missing out on right now? There's so many things we would doing right now as a family. Like right now we would be going to the fair. I just wonder if it even affects them and are they fighting off feelings themselves? I've been tempted to ask if she would like to go to the fair with me and kids. But I know its not the time to do ask. I guess I just miss doing all the fun stuff as a family and wonder if it even crosses her mind. Or is she so wrapped up in fantasy fog it just doesn't matter atm.
I know I am going to hear it from the vets about needing to forget about all this stuff and GAL. But I cant help but wonder if it even bothers a WW.
Today is a day of getting back into the grind of work and try to get through the next 2 weeks.
Peace
ME 47 W 38 M17 T20 Separated 5/20/18 D-bomb 7/9/2018 Nothing Filed 4 kids ages 6, 10, 14, 15
