Just saw his truck at the bar on my way home. I have a question about this. Is it better for me to avoid this and go a different way or is it better for me to see it and get angry? He MUST be seeing someone who works there, he must. Which makes me want to vomit and tell him to leave me alone for the rest of my life. He KNOWS I have to drive by there. I cannot believe the nerve he has!! It blows my mind.
I am being tested in so many ways here. I know he is going to be at my house later and I really want nothing to do with him. But if I leave and show my anger that’s probably not smart right? So I will fake pleasant and leave. I’m so annoyed. I HAVE to leave my home because of his poor choices and because he changed his mind and doesn’t want a family. It’s absurd. He can’t keep coming here as he pleases. I don’t care if a schedule makes him upset, we have to do it. I can’t do this every night with him and then him take weekends off, please.
I hope any other relationship he is starting up crashes and burns in his face and he loses me in the process. I’m too good for this bull****. He married up with me, why don’t I see that and MOVE ON. I love him so much and he’s just crushing me DAILY. Daily.
