best thing would be to just fast forward life, set W free and just live. funny how those songs that say "i breathe in, i breathe out" I used to pay them no extra mind, but now many days inhale, exhale is sometimes the best I got. it's never been about control over the WAS. way more just HOW/WHY, walk the walk you want to take as it's your life, but for those of us who's life is destroyed in your wake, a bit of what happened sure would be nice.
lost, as for all of us on here I'm very sorry to hear of your sitch. as hope, you seem to still have some comms with your wife recently and that she was to speak with a therapist...i pray for you that you have more communication with her and that your W may yet go speak to someone. in my sitch it's been pretty much full on ghost mode from her for months now. at least for me it's like my W has died away, there is some solace in the absence if that makes any sense.
wlf, I marvel at your faith buddy. for sure I'm in a deep challenge to my faith, perhaps that's the whole point of this. for sure it's the worst trial of my life and sadly I feel like I'm losing the battle. i just want to cut free of W and stay far away from the idea of love and marriage for the rest of my life.
all three of you, thank you so much for your prayers! my prayers to each one of you in your sitches.
