Thanks so much, I have been dying for something from someone to get me through another day. I am staying busy, working, trying to keep moving forward. As I stated he texted me last night that he was sorry and needed time to acclimate. He then sent me a video of a song and said that the baby is everything to him. I told him that he is everything to her as well and that I understand the acclimating thing..
He then sent 2 more texts about the baby and how she smiles at him and is the only woman to ever love his beard. I didnt respond to those. And then he texted this morning asking what she needs. I struggle with the fact that I am here mourning our marriage and he doesnt seem at all affected by that. He is sad to lose time with the baby, but he was spending no time with her prior to this due to his lifestyle. I am glad he is now making an effort to see her and I dread the days he starts taking her for periods of time, etc. But in the meantime I am continuing to stay busy, GAL. I am trying to 180 but I find I have the hardest time doing that.
When he texted last night about acclimating to all of this, I thought to myself how would I normally respond, how could I be different. But I ended up just saying I understand, which is probably what I would have said before if I responded at all. WE ARE ALL acclimating to this, doesnt he see that?
I want him to WANT to come back so bad. Him crying yesterday confuses me, yet he is the one filing for divorce, etc. Is he extremely confused or was me giving him his stuff yesterday and discussing a schedule with the baby just too much?
I dont know, I need to work on not nicing him to death. I want to be understanding and loving but also firm on my boundaries and respected.
