MBE, I really feel for you, I know all these mixed signals are tough to go through. I don't blame you for being intimate with her, so don't beat yourself up too much. In fact Michele even says in DR that it's OK as long as you don't have expectations. But that's the problem, it's very difficult NOT to have expectations that it means something, that it's a turnaround of some sort on the WAS's part. But more than likely she's just engaging in some cake-eating. I don't think she's being malicious, but the trip was a reminder to her of what she's missing and she wanted to have it back again if only for a while. Unfortunately as often happens, once you get back home it's right back to WAS "business as usual". Your response should be to get back to DB'ing basics. Detach. Leave her alone. GAL. Work on yourself. Read Sandi's rules and use those to model your behavior.
