DB / Detach, WAW... piecing

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Met W at pool with D4 today. I was going to meet her to give her D4 pool stuff... She invited me to come to the pool... one of first times asking me to do something together... I pushed for more and pursued like an idiot. Impatience kills me. Im tired of making the same mistakes. There are so many red flags with W I may admit we're toxic for each other and just move on. I'm so torn here.

Ideally wife would agree to try and we'd date and see if it works or not. I want to have this real conversation with her face to face- I feel she doesnt care about me and hasnt since separating. To me she seems selfish, entitled, anxious, etc. Red flags...

She wants to take it slow because she says she has been through so much, talk on the phone and build a friendship. Maybe if we build this foundation I will see her differently. In previous post: W said- Seem seem seem. Your perception of me and my feelings is not accurate. Maybe my perception is way off. Our biggest issue has been lack of communication and connection on a mental level. Assumptions kill our communication. The physical was always there.

D4 starts school tomorrow. I think Im going to make the 30 min drive just to walk her to the classroom. W has her.

Thanks all.. really at a crossroads here.