So I've had alot of time on my hand the last couple of days. The good news is that I'm not home to stew. I'm having fun with my kids and my family at the cabin. It's been nice. My mind has been occupied by doing other things. So the time on my hands. Again I went back to read all the posts from the vets. Sandi, Vapo, Joseph, Endofit and many others. I'm so glad I did. I pick up on more stuff that I might have missed and I'm starting to understand everything a little bit better.
I never dreamed I would be here checking in on the DB forums. Sandi, thanks for taking the time to send the detach info. I have read through it carefully and know I am still trying to control things without even thinking about it. As I read back a couple weeks, you laid it out that my W will have to experience many things and it will take a while before anything might happen. The sooner and faster I can detach (for real) the sooner things will happen. I believe this will be about the time I will notice I'm finding joy in my life. I do worry and care about the mother of my children, however she has other things going on that have nothing to do with me. Yesterday when I took s6 to her, it was very early in the morning, her parents were taking him camping. I didn't say much to her. We were pleasant and I didn't stay long. I asked if she could look after our dog while we were gone for a few days. She said yes...I said thanks and off I went. So , I definitely am trying not to act like I miss her. I know she still has her guard of steel way up. So, nothing I can do but try to move on. I do miss having her on these long weekends. I do hope she realizes she's missing out on family fun. But shes totally in a different mindset right now. Forcing the new way of life. She did unfollow me on Instagram. Its stupid things like that for some reason gets in my head and bothers me...I don't know, probably no big deal. I just post pics of our kids is all.
While here, my family (my siblings and their spouse) will want to talk about the sitch. I get tired of talking about it. Just want to relax..so I usually cut it short or change the subject, even though it's on my mind..lol.
So I continue to battle. Thanks for the encouragement. It totally helps us new guys and gals.


ME 47 W 38
M17 T20
Separated 5/20/18
D-bomb 7/9/2018 Nothing Filed
4 kids ages 6, 10, 14, 15