I'm Broken III

[bhappy2]

I sent H a text this morning.

"The party was a success. Talking to the other moms as they dropped off the girls...saying words like "my husband", or "our house", "we love hosting"...knowing I don't have a husband and nothing is "ours",

Your happiness is just around the corner... I can see it. Why, bc you are getting to the point of seeing through H's BS.

knowing we have S17's 18th birthday, his graduation, D15's sweet 16 and none of it will be what it should be deep down. We'll be experiencing it all as separate instead of the sweetness of together.

You have these parties and have the best time ever if H doesnt want to be a family then thats on him. You make your D's sweet 16 the best possible. Hold your head high and do the right thing for your family... right now he is not bc a family member would not treat another member this way.

You're so stupid for throwing away everything we had. I've never even heard of such a display of pure egotistical foolishness let alone seen it with my own eyes. You send me texts like "I've never done anything wrong"...to hurt you...26 years and you've been perfect but the first to announce that one doesn't get to decide for themselves whether or not they've caused the level of hurt the other professes. You're so stupid it's just beyond anything I hope you're happy with this effed up version of a family. Talk about a broken family. We're already broken. Shattered. What a waste."

So yeah. There's that.

You are really emotional, I caution you to not text when feeling like this... I know you really do not want advice but this was tough to read. I can feel the anger in your writing. Dont do it, be the better person... GAL like crazy... live for your children. This site is about saving marraiges, it didnt take me long to realize it was to save me. I really had to work hard at realizing there is so much more to life, I do not need my W in my life, I wanted her but I do not need. Big difference.