Some might say I deserve it and some might say I don't. It doesn't matter, does it? Perhaps some would say that despite my mistakes I'm still a great person and overall still a really good wife.
Of course it matters, no one should be emotionally abused. NO ONE! Your children are witnessing the abuse and may be thinking its acceptable to treat someone this way. You dont want anyone to give you advice anymore bc its conflicting in some ways. Thats ok bc we all need to process our situations and develop a plan for our own happyness and mental well being.
Every crime has a punishment of a certain amount of time, how long is your punishment for what you did. If your H truly loved you he would be able to forgive you and rebuilt that trust and relationship with you. Could you ever envision how great it would be should he treat you like his loving W? How the entire family dynamic would change. Make small steps to achieve that change.
I think/believe if you told him you were done he would come running back to you full force... right now he knows you want to keep the family together and uses that as leverage to treat you poorly. The strength you need to do this will take time, but if you want to rebuilt you just may have to let him go...
Now how did you do in the 5K? Looks like you had great weather.
M:52 W:49 D:26 S:24 S:23 D:20 ILYBNILWY 5/28/17 Still living together W filed 1/5/18 W moved out 8/24/18 D final 9/18/20
