Is there hope? I have a WW

[LANE777]

Hey Sandi, good to hear from you today. To answer your question. Yes , I wanted her to spend time with them any where. Especially during the day while I'm at work. She told me she was off all day today. I know she resents me more than I know. I do miss her, but never show that side of me. I need to get to where I don't care...the sooner the better.
So she did text me early this morning and asked if she could pick up the 2 younger kids from school and keep them for 2 hours. Of course I just said yes. We get along great on texts b/c brief. Phone calls are just short and to the point. Face to face is more intense.
Today I just wanted to stop thinking about everything. My mind wanders all over the place. I'm mad, then sad and lonely and then just neutral then jealous. Tonight, my oldest D15 and I went to a college football game for a while until she got bored and wanted to leave. Trying to stay busy is challenging for me when I'm not at work. Tomorrow the kids and I are going to visit family. Hopefully I dont get stuck in thinking mode...as in I wish we were all together for holiday weekend like last year. I literally cant go anywhere with out something reminding me of how the family once was. Anywho, I hope my dam attitude improves. Going to read some DR now and then come check back.