Getting Back to my Old Self

[DonH]

Well things just got real - I mean they were real all along but now airline tickets have been purchased - it's really happening. I really thought that for a cruise 139 days from now (no I didn't calculate it, the electronic tickets did) they would not be moving this fast. I guess I really was the holdup. Unbeknownst to me at nearly the same time I was talking with Wild Girl about going a week ago Tuesday, the head guy was contacting the band leader saying they really need to move on this and just what or whom is the holdup? LOL I guess some of the incentives do go away at the end of September. But I was sorta shocked when here come the electronic tickets from Delta. Turns out we are flying to Miami a day early - at 6 AM. We then get back late the following Saturday - too early to drive out and too late for WG to drive home so she will arrive to my house on Thursday evening and return for her home 11 days later on Sunday. Holy Craap - 10 nights and 11 days together! The last time I've even spent close to that amount of time with someone was over 13 years ago when I was still married.

I'm surprisingly still doing okay with it all - actually I'm really, really excited. It's been a long, long time, well, again 13 years, since I've planned something like this with anyone I was romantically involved with - or more than just platonic friends with. I almost sense Wild Girl bringing some of her walls down as well. We've had some very nice conversations earlier in the week. The best mind reading I can do is, for all of her casual bravado, she really was waiting for me to dump her. She had commented before of not knowing yet if I'm a player, etc. I think she now figures, well if he's taking me on a cruise nearly 5 months from now, he's not dumping me anytime soon. I think it's allowing her to relax some. That said, I'm also still seeing and experiencing some of her random little distancing comments - which I think is just her. Perhaps I've been reading too much into some of her actions? Hmmmmm, ya think? LOL

Thankfully, she is still not getting pushy. In fact I've not seen her in about 10 days, since I asked her to go, and may not for a week or two yet. She did have camping plans with her family this weekend but they may be getting cancelled due to all of the rain we've had in the area the past week. That may change things, we shall see. Otherwise I'm scheduled to stay at her house in a few weeks - something she's already told her daughters about happening. They are now calling me her boyfriend - she is not. LOL To say she is excited, however, is an understatement and that makes me feel good. I'm still just enjoying the ride and everything that comes with it. Other than our misunderstanding from three weeks ago, it has been a pretty good three months. We'll see if anything repeats in about a week to 10 days when the cycle comes around again - if that was a piece of it. I did see and talk with her parents - mostly her mom - last week Sunday. She even mentioned that Wild Girl had said she was upset with me. When I told them, what I said was taken out of context, they both right away said, yeah, that's Wild Girl. Her mom even added, "you must know that by now." Oh great. So they are sort of confirming it for me. I totally see it as a function of her old wounds but it still is not an attractive attribute - even if it can be explained. Clearly something I'll continue to watch.

Anyhow, just wanted to provide that update. On balance, it's still been a really good summer. For someone that is totally fine being by themselves and on their own - often preferring it - I've really enjoyed the time we've spent together and continue to look forward to the next time. Or is it all of the physical parts I've been missing and now look forward to? Might be a bit of both. Whatever, it would appear this will be continued at least through the end of January. Who knew!!!!!!