Thanks for chiming in. In terms of exercise, when I talk about cutting back it is more about physical exhaustion. I am commuting to work 16 miles round trip each day on my bike and it is extremely hot, humid and hilly where I am. Doing hot yoga at 6 a.m. 3 days a week and climbing for 1.5-2 hours 3 days a week (with another 10 mile round trip on the bike), and doing 2 18-25 mile group bike rides a week, is leaving me physically exhausted. All the energy I expend in my classes doesn't help either. I get it, the exercise and socialization should be and is a priority for me. I just don't know that I can keep it up like I have been trying to do.
In terms of the note, first and foremost I recognize that I am not totally detached because I did have a reaction to it. I didn't melt down, but it hurt. Three months ago that would have left me in a puddle of tears. I think I am progressing. I tried to sit with my reaction (anger) and process where it was coming from. I didn't try to assign any evil intent to her message. She meant well by it. She has been sweet, concerned for me, and guilt-ridden throughout this whole process. That has been constant throughout. However, her pity and professions of caring for me do rouse feelings of anger because they don't align with her actions. I'll be happy to move past this phase of anger and resentment because it isn't a great place to be, but I also want to respect that stage of the grief process and not try to rush it.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019
