Thank you so much, youre absolutely right. No point in obsessing and worrying until it actually happens. And just be prepared with my reaction. Goodness, if only he had ANY idea I have a whole community of people here helping me and supporting me.
I know I made the right decision in making him leave. I hate that it took that for him to tell me he wants a divorce, but I have to face it all now head on. I do hope we can come back from this, but he has to want that too somewhere down the road, so we will see if we ever get there. For now I will keep GAL, or trying.
Fake it till I make it. It will be nice to go out, maybe ill get the attention of a few guys and get a whole new boost of confidence. I wouldnt entertain ANY of it, my focus is me and my D. I just laugh. If his "bar friends" that he keeps in this other life away from me, ever met me, they would probably ask him what in the world he is doing slumming it when he has me at home. Not tooting my own horn, I just do deep down know my worth, know im better than how he is treating me, and know I am better than this other life he wants.
If only my mind could stay in that head space. The confidence comes and goes, along with the sadness and the crying. Ive cried a few times today and then got it together.Will keep pushing forward. Still get a knot in my stomach when thinking about possibly being given papers by him tonight, but promise to try to stop obsessing!
