Yeh I am following some sitch's here and I'd like to see how things are going with you. I am not posting much and I am not as active as before - taking more time offline to do life and keep on the journey.
That's awesome that meditation is working for you. I've been doing it for a while and I completely realize right now that it is a coping mechanism for me. From what I hear though that over time, it stops becoming a coping mechanism to a truly transformative practice that creates a more stress-free and relaxed life affecting all areas. I am looking forward to getting there in the next few months.
Sounds like you're still doing emotional recovery work though, which seems about right from your timeline. I was feeling very similar to how you are feeling and doing things but still was getting these negative spirals. I realized that my emotional recovery was suffering and I wasn't paying as much attention to it as I should have. So, I doubled down on it more and things are slowly improving. Not dramatically, but I am getting better.
My issue was that I didn't have a roadmap for the emotional recovery. With exercise and stress relief, the actions are fairly easy to figure out and what you prefer to do. With emotional recovery I was all over the map and I didn't know if I was at the right point, reflecting and asking myself the right questions. After some research, I came across this book called 'Claim your Power' by Mastin Kipp. I heard an interview with him, scoped out his social media and some of his free content, and I really liked what he was saying. It resonated with the emotional work that I need to do. So, I picked up his book 'Claim your Power' and it is a 40 day journey towards emotional recovery and fitness.
I am on day 23 right now and it has been hugely helpful. It helped me structure my recovery and also build on insights and realizations. There were a couple of things that I figured out that were truly amazing. I am not religious at all, and his approach has an aspect of connecting with the Creator. I believe he left it general for people of any faith or people like me to be able to access his work without being repulsed by it. So, I generally kinda don't pay attention to that aspect of it, but everything else has been very very good.
Even though I am not so hot about the Creator stuff in his book, I just approached the whole process with an open heart and that has been quite instrumental for my recovery.
Just a suggestion. Check it out and see if it is something that connects with you.
