Thanks for the response Maika! It's great to hear from you again.

Yeah, I have been doing meditation. On the mornings I don't go to yoga I wake up at 5:30, take a cold shower, and then do a 10 minute meditation focusing completely on my breath. Yesterday I did a second one in the afternoon after work because I felt so close to a breakdown. I also try to do it at least once a day on the weekends. Even when I am out walking or doing anything I will often focus on taking a few good, deep breaths in order to focus my mind.

I am definitely all about taking ownership of my life. Right now, when I am at a low point it feels like owning a POS junker, it's all mine but the AC is busted and wheels are about to fall off and the muffler is dragging on the ground.


W 34 Me 42
Married 7 years together 8
0 kids 1 beloved dog
BD 4/6/2018
I moved out 4/7/2018
I moved back in alone 8/05/2018
I file 3/06/2019
D official 5/7/2019