When you say “temperate checking”, do you think he has really started applying for divorce? I don’t think he would lie about it but gosh I’d love if he didn’t really do it.
Just sending so many texts, and I do know him so well. I know he wants my reaction and he wants me to want to discuss it. But I’m too heartbroken to discuss it. If he’s wanting a divorce that’s so upsetting to me. He has to know that.
I have already told myself I cannot drink tomorrow night. I have to be on my complete A game with this and always have control over myself. I know I won’t if I drink so I will not be drinking. I told him also I would be home by midnight. I am not offering for him to stay here, which I’m sure he expected me to do.
I need to 180 on a lot. This is where he pulls me into these heartfelt discussions, as he’s breaking my heart with the worst news ever. I have always given in and had the discussions with him. Trying to learn.
I hope D is not the end for us. Even if he files I do hope to still have time. What an awful night.
