I am ready for D if it comes to it. I don’t deserve this amount of hurt and pain.
Well you are right about that, no one deserves to go through what we have been through. But I promise you, a fast D is not going to solve all your problems. Only TIME does that. Slow down, take a deep breath. Center yourself. Take the long-term view.
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I don’t deserve to be away from my house.
So why are you. We are all big proponents of STAYING in the house. If the WAW wants to leave then hold the door open for her. Don't kick her out, just hold the door open and let her choose. But YOU should STAY. Minimize your losses.
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I don’t deserve to spend only partial time with D4.
Well that's something you can't fully control. Fight for as much visitation as you can get, and make the most of the time you do get with her. One blessing from these messes is it teaches us to value the time we spend with our kids.
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I don’t deserve the crippling anxiety of this ordeal.
Your anxiety is largely based on fear of the unknown. Most of us come to find our fears were unfounded, that the "unknown" is in fact a hell of a lot better than being married to someone that doesn't want to talk to you, look at you or have sex with you.
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But I also know others here who have experienced what I’m experiencing for far longer than I have. So I’m not alone.
Every one of us has been through it, and those of us that have it way in our rearview mirror can promise you that you have some really great things in your future, you just don't know it yet! It may be recon, it may not be, but when you get there, it won't matter because you'll be awesome either way.
