Kech, first of all a big hug. And slow down and breathe, I know what you feel and are going through, I was and am still there. Read through my sitch, it will make you realize you are not the only one with a baby and a goof ball of a WH. After 6 months post BD, I am still struggling and living it by the day. A single mom's life is unimaginably hard I have a 3 year old and a 8 month old. Easier said than done but do not panic. I have come to accept that the grief we go through is a journey, some of us take longer than the others but we will all survive. I have immense respect for how you have handled yourself and the baby so far. And this fool WH of yours, BDd you while you were pregnant? Take a moment and answer these questions for yourself honestly without fear. - As much as you had a role to play in the breakdown of your MR, do you deserve this? Does a pregnant woman, a nursing mother deserve to be treated this way by her H? - Does you baby deserve a broken home? What is her fault? - While 99.9% of the Hs stay with their wives throughout all this, why is your H worthy of you even though he is trying to pull this off? I do not want a D either but seems like I am getting one. The most I could do to salvage this was to mediate and come to terms that were acceptable to me. You and your D deserve a secure future both financially and emotionally. Every time I crumble and fall I think of my Ds, every time I feel I have been wronged I set it right for my Ds, every time I feel weak I gain strength by holding them, hugging them. Love has amazing strength, give it to your worthy D not to those who are undeserving of it. You can do this, you know why, because you have no choice and your D needs you. Even though you want to fall apart you have your beautiful baby waiting to embrace her happy bright future. I really hope he has a sudden epiphany and realizes his mistakes. But proceed as if you are preparing for a D and your sole goal is to ensure your D doesnt lose in all this. You shall survive this as the rest of us and come out holding your head high. (((kech)))
