Previously, H has been adamant that we can get divorce without lawyers. He says we just have to sign papers. I do not know if that is correct or what.

Yes I am a talker and a fixer. I always want to fix things to be ok. And he is completely okay with things being on bad terms sometimes, I am absolutely the opposite.

I will try to 180 these but man it is HARD. This has felt like the longest day in history. I will be seeing him in about 4 and a half hours and if he walks in the door with papers I can already feel my heart drop.