Need Guidance moving from new comer to MLC,

[marina7]

Journaling, and any advice

It's been an emotional wreck in my home.

Mediation for W and I.
I role played with my therapist,therapist pretended to be W to prepare me for Friday. Oh wow
I am an emotional wreck. I have anxiety. I quickly put head down down whe n therapist yeld
like W would. My therapist is so shock how much PTSD I have. Basically mental and verbal abuse.

D10 has been having break down pushing herself already in school. D10 said to me after I responded getting a B in exam is not bad. D10 said mom that is unacceptable other mom doesn't accept nothing but A...

I of course listen to D10 and then said listen d10 you are beautiful, smart and AMAZING remember
Do this for you d10. Get A in report cards for you. All this is for you because this momma
right here is proud to call you my daughter my little princess. I am the lucky one.
D10 smiled and hig me and said only you can make me feel better.

And when things settle it hits me. W has really did a number on us. W has mentally broken me and kids.
W still talks down to us. W demands and yells.
In the process W going through her MLC W has broken us.

I am tired I am exhausted. I am praying that W one day will wake up from this.
Because this is taking a toll on my d10. My d10 is pushing herself for her mom to notice her.
In reality W is to deep in that hole..

One day at a time
One minute at a time
One second at a time
Just breathe