WW- Equalzr's saga pt 2. WW's & MLC'er advice plz

[equalzr]

Well yesterday didnt go as well as i would have hoped. We had a smaller debate about finances and wife is being pretty stubborn about everything. She has made it a point to make things as difficult for me as possible. Shes definitely only concerned about herself at this point...of course right?

We still have a schedule for cooking for the fsmily which we split up duties on, or should i say that was the goal. I cook 3 nights and buy food another night or two out of the week. She is supposed to cook about 3 nights a week, which has become about once a week she actually cooks. The other nights have been reduced to frozen pizza night and figure it out on the fly night. W leaves almost every night to see OM, and must eat dinner with him on the nights she doesnt cook when she is supposed to be. I comfronted her about it after she left since S is at home. I told her it is pretty messed up to ditch cooking for your own S and family and then go eat with someone else. She replied that she was leaving more food for us. Yeah ok. S still asks do i know where mom went or when she will be home, and i can only tell him i have no clue. How a W and mother abandons her family is beyond me.

I hate that i said something to her about the whoe thing because im tryong to go darker, but ive been being used as far as housework goes. Shes been taking advantage of me for a while now on that front. Maybe she feels justified because she was the breadwinner for quite some time. I guess i should be her doormat on her way out the door in her mind.

On a side note, i went to the gym last night and got in a good workout. It felt great! Spent a little time with my S, read for a bit, and worked on business material for a while. W was gone into the nightime as usual. Im finally starting to truly change my feelings about her. I still love her deep down, but i despise who she has become, have lost all respect for her, and generally am repulsed by what shes doing.