Gordie 21 going with my gut

[Gordie]

One art

That is a lovely thought

That I can guide this (not control this) in the way that I want

To build the new relationship

Small change over the past month

Is w started calling me once a day at work to say hello

We would chat for 5 to 15 minutes

And then she stopped

And I missed it so I said to myself

Just pick up the phone and call her

And now sometimes she calls me

And sometimes I call her

Building a new relationship

Where we care about each other s lives again



Job

Thank you for your faith in me

Those words mean a lot

You are right that I am a fixer

Who cannot fix her

W has said and acted as if she has come to that place that I so pined for

To see that yes she is in pain

And struggling with the past

And yes she did feel trapped

And that she was dying

And that yes she felt like she was not free to explore the person she wants to be

In the institution of m

Being married to me

But after running away from me

And into the arms of OM

It made things worse for her

And yes she is not fully baked

As her focus is still mostly on herself

And as Cali said

It is good for her stay focused on herself right now

I cannot control or accelerate that

Breathe

Pray

One day at a time