I can't believe that after more than 3 years I'm still resentful. Ex GF put pictures of my kids on her FB profile when I explicitly asked ex not to. I don't put photos of them on FB as I feel they are too young to be already exposed to it. Told ex about it. He ignored me and now his GF blocked me.
I know I shouldn't have looked at it but I never put pictures of my step daughter put of respect for her mum and I fed she was too young too to be exposed to it. I would hope that I would get the same treatment but I guess not.
I'm looking for advice as I have to admit I don't know how to let go. I'm bitter that he has moved on and not tried to save the marriage. On the other hand would I want to be married to someone like that no. I don't understand why when people hurt other people intentionally move on with their life and are happy. I can't let go of the unfairness and I can't bring myself to go dating as I don't want to be hurt again.
I'm poisoning myself and it is a constant battle between me and my brain. I can't seem to switch off. I have been doing so well so why now.
Oh I know. I'm jealous of her. She is now living the life that we should have had with our kids. I see no consequences for my ex for what he did. I feel worthless and not even a good mother as I do not do as much as they do with the girls. I hate the fact that my kids love their dad when I have always been looking after them. Now he is behaving how I knew he was capable of but not with me. So I guess I brought the worst in him like he did with me.
I'm jealous because this woman is going to marry him and she is going to leave what should have been my life. I have read stories that cheaters do change with the right person. Why couldn't it be me? I was devoted to him. I supported him whenever he wanted to do something. Yes it's true that I wasn't fun to live with. I come from a family where fun was t something we would normally do.
I honestly don't know how to have fun. I don't want to be bitter all my life. I want justice. Is it too hard to ask?
