Can I just reject that? Just make a decision to say 'no thanks, I don't want **that** particular struggle'?
Yes you can! You can absolutely reject that and say no thanks to it, because you are absolutely right that it wasn't ever really your struggle anyway. It is easy to look back at something after the fact and see things differently, but you didn't have that benefit of hindsight in the situation.
It feels like such a relief...I feel lighter.
I know that ones of the things I've done repeatedly in life has been to assume the responsibility for a lot of things that haven't necessarily been my responsibility. Some of that I have done off my own bat in order to try and help out and sort things out (mistakenly, I would now say), some of that I know for sure that I have been manipulated into.
So, that's the crux of it. And how rewarding, being able to stand further and further back from it all (M and D), and from my own life outside of that and previous to it, to see some really pretty big patterns emerge.
