Wife is not who I married...Pls Help Pt5

[LoneWlf]

Please pray for me friend. Fell away from the church several decades ago due to depression. I am trying to be the city set on a hill for him.

S85-Thank you for weighing in on my sitch and giving me advice- The power of prayer is incredible and everyone needs prayers. I will pray for Him and you and your family also.

We must learn to love in a way that the other feel free. I know that in my own sitch I fell into a pattern of fix and control. It was consensual and appreciated at first. I now see where it became a problem over time. Regardless of how my MR works out, I will be a better mate because of my new awareness.

RR- wise words- Always better put into action and maintained. One of my future goals! Thank you!

At least if your wife isn't drawn to your changes you know other people are! If I was getting tons of compliments from men I'd probably feel better too. It seems the world is a better place when people compliment one another. I still hope your wife sees the light and comes back ready to do anything to reconcile but that's good to hear you're getting stronger both mentally and physically.

Nic, Thank you for your encouragement! At this stage I'm not sure what I want. I do know that i am not ready for someone new- I may have lost my capacity to trust so readily. I do know I miss my family and all the cherished family times together. As for W - still not sure where her head is at- i know this is mind reading- but being with her mom and sis for a week makes me wonder if she is falling deeper in to this New age belief structure. As they say here- not my circus- not my monkeys! I just have to keep moving forward.

Thanks for all your kindness and support! Blessings!