In a conversation with my W the other day after she apologized by text for hurting "me", we talked about her apology for just a brief few minutes. She told me that she had prayed to God about what was hapening and thats where she was looking for answers. I asked her if she had received any word or signs from God about what she should be doing, to which she replied "not yet". I told her that i think she has received plenty...but maybe she just didnt receive the answer from God that she wants. Suprisingly, she answered "maybe so". Obviously WW doesnt care about anything other than herself, she wants what she wants and she wants it now.
Im watching her tear down what weve built over the years, brick by brick. The way weve raised our son with so much sacrifice by us both is out the window, our M being destroyed, the way my son respected his mother is gone, our S's educational foundation is now taking a backseat to WW's "me time".
I believe W is now using money we coud have used for important family expenses on a future trip with OM. It wouldnt surprise me because she had me take time off work so she could go on a family vacation which turned out to be a trip with OM while i was at home w/ S. Im so tired of hiding her secrets for her, and taking the high road is getting harfer and harder.
Im cutting communication down this week, and going darker. Im also going to stop doing all the housework, since W seems to be getting out of it in one way or another. My S told me she just lays on bed all day even when im gone. She basically spends her time at home textimg OM.
Any tips and/or advice is welcome. Nothing left to lose now, W has filed and is in full R with OM, so im all about me and my S. Improving our mental health and my physical as well is paramount.
Together:20 years M:3 years Me:40 WW:40 S15 A suspected:5/17 AC:5/18 BD:8/18 WW in full blown R w/ OM Still under same roof
