Is there hope? I have a WW

[LANE777]

Yep, Monday is here and almost gone. Another week ahead. Nothing has really happened for a couple days which is a good thing. I notice I've noticed I am way more focused at work the last couple of weeks which is good. My D15 did go hangout with the W. I told her it would be good for her to do things with her mom. D is a very smart girl. She told me that she doesn't mind hanging out with her mom, but she is different now. She also says that she doesn't trust her...so sad for me to hear this.

As for me, I'm just plugging away. I don't want to reach out in any way at all. I keep thinking I need to do something, some sort of contact. My heart and my mind are confused. As fall approaches, its weird that I went the whole summer without my W. School is starting and now we will see how it goes with the schedule with kids.

I now think to myself how ridiculous this has been and it blows me away that this is still happening. It does give me comfort that the OM has been trying to break away from my W. But is [censored] that she is still in la la land pursuing this guy. When will the chemicals get back to normal. Its like she got struck with it very very hard. Alot of people have told me that when it hits it will hit her like a ton of bricks. I try and try not to think about her trip planned next month to Cali.
I know I need not to think about it, but I hope it falls through. Why would a guy want to go on a trip with someone he doesn't want to be with. Then again, here I go trying to mind read. LOL right Vapo?

Positive side of things. I am staying strong. Staying busy and avoiding any kind of contact with W. During the day I actually starting getting a little mad about the whole thing and how stupid it really is. But its serious because of 4 kids and I truly want it to come around right now. I guess thats why I am here is to bust this thing. But if not..I can move on with or with out her. I just want the last say.