DB / Detach, WAW... piecing

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She could get a part time job or something I shouldnt say she has no way to work. She definitely could get a minimally paying job. She acts entitled and wouldnt do it. She is taking her soil scientist exam at the end of September so after that she will be trying to get her business going. Who knows how it will go. I have already reached back out to the mediation attorney who says: typically spousal support /alimony may be a temporary method to help a spouse through a transition, the amount and duration can be determined by the both of you.

I kind of feel like at the end of september either she chooses to love each other and show acts of love consistently and try her best to piece it together if she truly wants to spend time together and get to know me or we divorce. Those are two options and the third is we see how things go but the support is drastically reduced or ends completely. She does have a year lease with both our names on it....

We barely talk. We spend no time together. Its sad especially for D4 but it is what it is. I cant change her or make her open up to me or take action. I continue to try to detach and do not reach out to her at all but we did have an event last night...

W was in the hospital last night having migraines and throwing up. She texted me a couple times I was busy and didnt get back to her for a couple hours. By the time I did call back she was crying, saying she thought she was going to die and was going to the hospital with her stepdad. She asked me to come. At first I said hope youre ok, we arent together etc... She said something like [censored] you I feel like Im going to die. Probably NGS and I should of let her feel like what its like without me. This is the women Im supposed to do all these tricks for to get back. I barely give her the time of day at this point.

In the past I would rub her neck and shed be ok she gets these tension headaches from stress or neck tightness... She said she appreciated me being there said how much it meant to her thanked me a bunch of times. They did a catscan it came back fine. It was the first time we were alone together in many months. It was pretty weird being close to her like that in the hospital. Last time I was in that hospital I was asking her mom to marry her. She said she wants to spend time together but doesnt know when asked me about getting tea for two which is something she likes to do.

Im just about checked out. I just replied let me know when she mentioned tea