Wife is not who I married...Pls Help Pt5

[LoneWlf]

RR-S85. No worries about the sidebar- thanks for the valuable information I may need it in the future.

Anyways just dropping in. S16 and I are planning for the upcoming school year. We are off shortly to get school supplies.I found out that W has gone to see her mom and sis for the week because she offered to take S with her. He did not respond. We had a good run in the city baseball championships. We placed 7th overall but managed to knock out the 2nd place team in the quarter finals and then eventually lost to the 1st place team in semi finals. I am so proud of him and his teammates.
I did bring up Ws bday to my S and i said I would support his decision - he said he did not want to do anything.
As for me I continue on this journey. Making myself - my health -my S a priority. Often times struggling with the poor me status. I am getting many compliments at the gym which are nice. I am really starting to feel that my W does not deserve me. Having replayed the R and seeing my contributions - my actions - my words- my failures . I feel that I did things with my full intent with the well being of my family as my objective. For my failures I have taken ownership and work steadily on making me better in those departments. I'm not totally sure that I want my W back. I know this can all change. I feel as though -I deserve better- I deserve more - I deserve to be happy! I am fully aware that I do not need that from my W although I still feel angry and betrayed because of her actions.
I went to a family get together yesterday - got a bunch of compliments on my appearance but I was also reminded of my broken family with all the families surrounding me. Just focused on having fun with S16.
This journey continues- one day at a time where the focus is on S and I and our path to happiness and fulfillment. My prayers are for peace in ALL our lives. Blessings!