She did ask if I was ok afterwards. I simply said yes and just stared out the window on the drive home.
Something of concern...
She was borrowing my laptop and I noticed that I left my browser signed in...all of my bookmarks, the history of my browsing, everything...was in her field of view.
I went and calmly asked if she saw anything or clicked on anything like my bookmarks while she had it (she had it for months and all of my browsing history is on there. No porn or anything like that...just webpages on saving the marriage).
She denied it. I don't know if she is telling the truth or not, but something tells me she saw and she knows my intentions.
I don't know how to feel.
This feeling really stinks. I feel like I'm just in a holding pattern waiting for the plane to crash or to be guided to safety. I can't believe it's only been one month. How am I going to deal with several more of these?
Edit: and I’m also assuming she saw my alternative email that used to buy the DB/DR books. The mail app had both of those emails.
I don’t know what to do or feel at this point. She has to know my motives at this point.
