It is very very very difficult to let go

It cannot be forced

And it takes time

And you have to let your feelings out

If you stuff them then you will really prolong your pain

You are counting days

Not sure if that is helpful

This will take much longer than you think

Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving