Is there hope? I have a WW

[LANE777]

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Today was an off day for me so far, after the turn of events yesterday, I feel myself slipping back a little. I start to miss the family and all the things we used to do. It is so disappointing and discouraging at times.
My kids came with me today while W worked an all day shift today. I picked them up and saw the calendar that shows my W going to Cali for 5 days next month. I really tried to ignore it because I already new she was trying to book it but it looks like its a go. Im hurting today and was doing so good that last week. I really wonder if there will ever be a day that I will actually have a conversation that doesn't involve kids. I miss just talking to her and joking around a little bit. That has no happened in months. All conversations are short and to the point. I know this is how its going to be for a while but when does it eventually happen and will it happen? I feel like Im in the twilight zone. I feel like my life is now a mystery and I am trying to get it all back on track.
It makes me wonder if this is working at all. It seems she doesn't have any interest at all in anything about me. Nothing! And I guess that what concerns me a lot lately.

I know the changes need to still happen in me before anything happens with her. Thats why I have been detaching as much as I can. My thought control was really good until today I let it get the best of me. I guess I need to go back and re-read the advice from everyone. Some of the things I need to remember.

Believe nothing they say and half of what they do.
Its not a sprint its a marathon.
37 rules,GAL, 180
It most likely take months or years
Be the best version of me
Stop trying to read W mind. Or anyones.
Be awesome !
Be patient. Which Im finally getting good at.
This is for me not her.
It will probably get worse before it gets better.
Detach