Ah its a knife to the heart when you find out off D that W is with OM today having coffee. D believes it's not like that due to OM being family friends for so long.W lies alot to everyone(especially me and D) to dodge exposure and loss of good girl status i guess. D is beginning to tell lies aswell,its disheartening to say the least im a firm believer in truths. It seems like all hope is lost as far as the marriage...duh i knew that 7months ago but my heart wont match up with my brain wtf! W was/is?? such a beautiful soul,honest loving and caring for 20yrs. W is going to her younger girlfriends place tonight(i know OM will be there)and leaving D at IL again. I know i cant change anything, just needed to vent to people that are in the same hell as i am.
No contact from W for a week now.
Question. W says months ago(just after bd) im a bad father and i need to look after D and her better than i do. I asked W what are the problems you have with me and what could make things easier for us to get back to a good place and start workibg things out....W says WE need money and I need space(thats when i realized im just being used) I am currently putting x amont in W account for D each week,though D13 tells me she doesnt recieve much of it at all. Should i put a small amount in W account for food for D and the rest in a seperate account for D when she needs it? iys an obvious question i know,but i feel as though im paying for W to enjoy time with OM. W seems to spend money on herself. Am i being petty or does W have to see what life is without me? D's IL live 200meters away and feed D everyday also provide anything for D that im not told about anymore.
