Well this morning early afternoon has been very rough. My mother in law has been living with us for a while....shes very sick, W and I brought her here to stay with us to get her out of an elderly abuse situation....yesterday W thanked me with heartfelt sincerity for helping with her mom and bringing her to stay with us.... I spend all night reading the forums and taking care of her..... Was a bad night..... Then today W wakes up and says she wants to get a place with her mama and she acknowledged that she notices I am trying to change, but it is not enough. I do not consider what I have out her through all these years.... She says if she forgives me she would be letting down her promise to herself and she cannot do that.... I tried to validate to the best of my ability.....i did break down and say I know what I have done I am not denying any of it, I am working in becoming A better person. She says she knows. I did ask her for another chance....(I know moment of weakness) and she said she doesn't know what will happen in the future she didn't deny it was possible......idk what to do or say anymore, yesterday she was talking about us and we. It's just suck a mind fuq to try to keep up.... She hasn't mentioned D for awhile and as I have been told. Before I will no help with any of that leg work regardless..... I appreciate the advice I have gotten so far, and hoping for some insight on what to do how to go from here.... Taking it really hard right now. Thanks in advance.
