I know others have struggled with the hope issue. It is kind of like buying a mega lotto ticket. You know the chances are very slim of winning, minute even. But you do it anyway "just in case". The only difference is that while buying a lotto ticket means you are out the cost of the ticket, you don't really lose anything by DBing.....and gain everything.

Separate hope from DBing.

I am going to DB because it is the best option (since pursuit and pressure DO NOT WORK.
There is always at least a sliver of hope that my WAS will come around.

They do not have to be tied together. They can be mutually exclusive.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018